Waiting to Exhale

Since the day that we got our news I have been fully blissed out for about 24 hours. It is the strangest feeling in the world that not many will understand but the happiness just didn't stick around long before the doubts and worry set in. Doubts that the test wasn't actually positive in the first place, worry that it was, but since then something has gone horribly wrong (been there, done that!) I was having a chat with a good friend, trying to explain the wierdness and guilt surrounding my feelings (I mean, I'm supposed to be the happiest I have ever been, right?) and I do believe she said it best..."welcome to the rest of your life. There is always going to be something to worry about, to feel anxious about...it's a normal part of being a mom." Did it ever make me feel good to have normal and me used in the same sentence. Nothing has felt normal in a looong time!

We have been for our first ultra sound and got to see the most beautiful little blob I have ever seen. Some breath has snuck out and a whole lot of happiness replaced it on the inside. It will be the sound of this little ones cry that will let the flood gates open.

(apparently my photos are corrupt! You'll just have to wait a little longer to see the dreidle!)

Words cannot describe!

This feeling of complete elation will not go away. The perma-smile, the complete giddiness, the incessant need to make lists, dozens of lists! I suspect I'll be feeling this way for 9 months or so! ;)

I Think I'm in Love

I found this gem on Etsy while searching for Brithday and Christmas ideas for Darin. Think it will be an early Merry, Merry for me!

Doesn't this just make you smile?

Home Sweet Home

We're in!! Thanks so much for the help from our families and friends who came up to get us in here!

We have had the house for a little over a month now and have done a fair bit of work. I swore I would take before and after pics and had grand plans for a mini book to capture every step of the way but all was shot to hell when I didn't get the picture of us with the 'sold' sign. Oh, well!

This is all I have...the agents pictures. The pictures that made me NOT want to buy this house...enjoy!

Open Window

Love, I see you there
Adrift on the air
Floating by the open window
Ah, the sentiment of love
Reflections that speak of
What can enter when our hearts are open

Here, witnesses appear
And recognize
How sacred love can be when stated
Shared, shown for all to know
The beauty that can grow
When love is cultivated

Our love is a sacred thing
Like the mysterieis of the night
In the darkness unwavering
And still so strong come the light
Our love is an infinite thing
Like the sun's last ray on the sea
As it sets low in the west
And the moon rises

- Sarah Harmer